The Last Sunset

 As the sun sets for the final time, I embrace the beauty of what was and the mystery of what comes next.

There are days when you don’t like anything; everything seems meaningless. People are shouting, celebrating, and enjoying being young. Everything feels so good in youth — we are young, full of energy, dreams, aspirations, big ambitions, and a bright future ahead of us.

Life is beautiful in so many ways. It has wonderful things to offer, but only if you go for them. We are all living in the circles of our lives, in different parts of the world. The only way to truly realize ourselves and explore this life filled with magical experiences, good memories, and an understanding of human nature is to step out of our circle zone. Life is mysterious — we don’t know why we are here until we reach a point in life where we either become believers in something, cope with faith, or keep wondering about our existence.

I’m nothing but grateful.
For all the things that happened and all the things that didn’t happen the way I wanted.
I’m nothing but grateful.
The breath I just took — it’s a blessing.
For what could have been, and what couldn’t,
I’m nothing but grateful

Maybe far away from people, in a distant house surrounded by beautiful nature and only a few loved ones, I would like to live a normal day. With no phone, I would pray, eat, and think, but my human mind cannot comprehend the unknown beyond that. I won’t worry; sometimes, the earth can be so nice and warm. Gosh, I will think — I will leave this beautiful earth to the unknown territory beyond my comprehension. I want to burn and feel the sun on my skin.

I will think good, feel sad, feel good, and think of all the good things that happened to me. All those kind people who worked for humanity, giving up their own desires — I will write. I want to have a cat by my side. I will think and feel all the goodness I tried so hard to bring out of me in moments of difficulty. Maybe I didn’t succeed in staying naive, but I wanted that from deep within my heart.

I will let all the things go away from me — the life I wanted for myself, the things that didn’t make me happy, the things that deeply hurt me. Feeling like I didn’t belong anywhere — I won’t feel sad about it anymore. I want to talk with someone for a few moments, just to sit beside me for a while, no need to talk. I want to hug someone. Maybe life could have been different, but I won’t think about it anymore.

I want my heart to be pure and full of love. I will think about the things I wanted. I knew they would make me feel good for a while, maybe a few years or more, but I can’t have them. It was hard for me not to have them — the pain, the emotions, the love that I carried with me for this.

I want to watch the sunrise and the sunset. As the day comes to an end, for good reason, the love that I spread — even a little — will remain on this earth, and the kindness will live on in someone else. I will go back to where I came from — maybe into something deep and meaningful or into nothingness.